just when i think i've got all figured out.
something new sends me for a spin.
and i'm searching again.
for answers to questions.
i ask over and over.
but not all the time.
i think my emotions are in order.
but i soon find, that's just what i think.
and i'm being tested.
back down on my knees in the dark of my room.
im asking You again.
what's happening now.
i'm reminded of your perfect timing.
but i don't know what that has to do with anything.
there's a lot of things going on.
in my head.
and in my heart.
and in my mind.
i want to pull the blankets over my head and sleep it away.
and i want to dream of happy things.
and people who make my life.
but that isn't the answer, i know it.
the answer is more kneeling on the bedroom floor.
asking and praying.
and wondering.
and trying to figure things out.
and know who i should trust.
and who i shouldn't.
at least i can trust You Lord.
i'm reminded of who loves me.
and who cares the world for me.
but there's still all this craziness going on deep down.
changing me again.
i like change.
but im confused.
and i'm trying to be loyal.