Learn it

I think I understand now.
OCHEC is just one big drama.
Emotional and stretching and wonderful.
All at the same time.
Lessons are good.
So is being homeschooled.

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Instant fascination.
Attention.
Spotlight on me.
For one morning.
Sanity is better in the long run.
So are the friends you see twice a week.
Not just twice a year.

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Adventures into the unknown.
"I told you we're on the wrong floor!"
"Let's just take this elevator."
*Pile in*
*Hit floor 3*
"Luke, move, I want to read that sign!"
"Due to renovations, access to P3 and P5 is limited."
*Punch, punch, punch, punch*
Luke to the rescue.
*Doors slide open*
4 teens run out laughing.

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Lifesong.
Amazingly talented.
That's all.


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Boldly.
"What's your name?"
...I didn't know I could do it.

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Why did I ever doubt him?
I feel so terrible.
Seeing deep within.
'Your face is like an open book to me."
Scary, in fact, beyond scary.
Yet strangely reassuring.
Can it really make me feel more loved.
Why do I doubt that I am loved by them in general.

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Overreacting is my prime weakness.
First step is identifying it.

Compassion is my prime strength.
Clashes with my weakness.

That's me.

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I should listen to you more.
You have good evaluation of people skills.
I could save myself some trouble.
I should understand you care.

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Okay, I wish I understood you better.
I'm curious to see how you rule the world.
Such a pretty face.
How do you do it?

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Wow, I never knew you were so nice.
I feel awful for not getting to know you better sooner.

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90 minutes.
Solid.

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It's over.
I can't believe it really.
It seems yesterday it started.
I want you to know I'm so proud of you.
I know it's hard.
I hear it in your voice.
I know I could see it in your eyes if I was there.
Like I want to be.
Distance is going down.

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Elegant piano music enveloping me.
Somehow reminding me I am never alone.
Through every storm.
Every dissapointing situation.
Every disheartening conversation.
There you are Lord, calling out to me.
Calling my name.

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Love goes a long way.
Did you know that?

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Oh and please don't ask who I like.
I honestly don't know.
:P

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O my God, I trust in You; Let me not be ashamed; Let not my enemies triumph over me.
Psalm 25:2

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Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever.
Psalm 107:1

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And the verse that's shaking my world right now.

And above all things have fervant love for one another, for love will cover a multitude of sins.
1 Peter 4:8

I have a lot to live up to.

I am not alone in my battles.

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Learn it.
Learnt it.

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All my love.

Honestly

Honestly, I'm not that strong.
I'm not as amazing as I look.
And deep within me I want it so badly.
Yet, I know this is the right thing.
It's hard.
I feel so alone but I know I'm not.
You come over and ask me to smile.
And I can't help it.
You're such a good friend.
And I love you soo much.


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Together we stand.

30 Hour Famine

I'm on the 30 Hour Famine, right now.
I'm hungry.
I'm tired.
I'm in a weird mood.
My sense of humour is off.
I wish a lot of things.
I have too much time to think about things.

But hey, I'm saving a little child somewhere on the other side of the world.
A child that because of me will live at least for a little while longer.
Not so bad, when tomorrow I'll be back to eating*cough* 2 full meals a day.
Perserverence.
Faith.
Strength.
Thank you Jesus.

Trying to find the verse about giving water to the least of these.
Or something along those lines.
I can't find it.
AHHH.
This is annoying.

I'll find it later.
*Sigh*.

Kathleen

What?

The wind blew her across the street, but she barely noticed.
She was too preoccupied.
Preoccupied with what?
I don't understand.
Cold envelops her, she shivers, almost compulsively, but she doesn't really notice the cold.
I wonder why.
Writing doesn't seem to be helping her, she pauses at the corner and looks up.
The great expanse of sky is overwhelming right now, she looks down.
Why must she try to push it aside.
Why can't she just shout it out.
It's taking all of her to play it cool.
I wish I knew.
Maybe I could help her.
Probably not though.
A camera flashes, she turns, and there he is.
*Got ya*. Smiles.
It's uncanny, he's there, she swallows.
Now or never.
She opens her mouth.
*Bang*
The words never come.
The car races by.

Days later.
He sits on the grass.
Why had he never told her?
Regret twists what's left of his heart.
I silently cry out for him.
Tears come.
It's all very firmiliar.

It's not too late.
Not yet, at least.

Natural

I had so much fun last night.
And I totally miss everyone who was here.
We just roll how we roll, or should that be, bowl how we bowl?:P
I love you all.
We just fit together so naturally.
We're so loud...and we have a lot of fun in the process.
"I feel great"
Happy Birthday Keith, my friend.

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Easter.
I live because He lives.

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Here I go.

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Could it be any other way?
I think I'm getting a complex.
I really do.
And I don't know if I want this.
Or maybe, it's more of a NEED, rather than a WANT.
It just seems so natural.
Then I shake myself, and say...is it?
I just don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
And I'm sorry, you won't understand.

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There's too many.
I'm confused.
I think about it way too much.
I guess that's what you do, when you can't figure something out.
Thing is, I can figure it out, I just don't want to.
It's actually scary.
No, really, it is.

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"I would walk 1000 miles to be with you.
If I lived 100 years, I'd spend it loving you."

I couldn't resist.
This is me.

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Do I believe it?

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Kathleen

Awe

Snow on Good Friday. Heh. You'd think we were celebrating Christ's birth, not His death and ressurection. Ironic, I suppose.

To feel small, and insignificant, while the Creator of the universe came down, humbled Himself as a man and died that I might be forgiven.

"As a rose trampled on the ground, You took the fall, and thought of me, above all."

Happy Good Friday....because we know the ending.

Not Anymore

Heh.
"Sooooo."
"Let's get this party started!"
"YAHHHHH!!!!"
I scream at the devil.
"YOU HAVE NO CONTROL"
The devil laughes.
"YOU HAVE NO CONTROL."
The devil persists.
"YOU HAVE NO CONTROL."
The devil says.
"What are you talking about, I have control."
"NOT ANYMORE."
I break those bondages.
I break those ties.
I conqour that frustration.
All in the precious name of the Lord Most High.
And if my life didn't belong to Him before.
"IT DOES NOW"
"Yeah that's right, get lost, beat it."
"Jesus reigns here, it's all about Him"

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After a pretty hard week, and things just not turning out the way they should have on Saturday, surprisingly, the later part of my weekend turned out pretty good.
In fact I needed it so badly, and I didn't even realize it til I was smiling and laughing and feeling genuinely happy for the first time in a few days.
I didn't have to be on my guard. I didn't have to think about everything that is going wrong, the pressures, frustrations, fears, and wonderings. I had no responsibilites, but to smile, laugh, love and worship God.
All in the company of, I've decided, some of the best people on this earth.
Make sure your heads don't get too big, otherwise I'll have to come and "beat you up".
You know me. The biggest beater-upper there is.
Not Anymore.

*A full-blown teeth smile stretching from ear to ear*

No ducks here.
Just a girl who's knowing she's going to make it.
Oh, on one condition....
You don't go nowhere at all.
(Yes, I am aware of bad grammer.)

I LOVE You.

Kathleen

NOTE: Special thanks to three guys in my life that seem to annoy me with their one-liner zingers, but actually rather amuse me a lot. Almost (all) one-liner zingers found in this post are property of L.B., J.V. and K.B. and if used without permission may result in interesting consequences. Thank you.

And remember : "Hosanna" rules over "Happy April Fools."