30 Hour Famine

I'm on the 30 Hour Famine, right now.
I'm hungry.
I'm tired.
I'm in a weird mood.
My sense of humour is off.
I wish a lot of things.
I have too much time to think about things.

But hey, I'm saving a little child somewhere on the other side of the world.
A child that because of me will live at least for a little while longer.
Not so bad, when tomorrow I'll be back to eating*cough* 2 full meals a day.
Perserverence.
Faith.
Strength.
Thank you Jesus.

Trying to find the verse about giving water to the least of these.
Or something along those lines.
I can't find it.
AHHH.
This is annoying.

I'll find it later.
*Sigh*.

Kathleen

What?

The wind blew her across the street, but she barely noticed.
She was too preoccupied.
Preoccupied with what?
I don't understand.
Cold envelops her, she shivers, almost compulsively, but she doesn't really notice the cold.
I wonder why.
Writing doesn't seem to be helping her, she pauses at the corner and looks up.
The great expanse of sky is overwhelming right now, she looks down.
Why must she try to push it aside.
Why can't she just shout it out.
It's taking all of her to play it cool.
I wish I knew.
Maybe I could help her.
Probably not though.
A camera flashes, she turns, and there he is.
*Got ya*. Smiles.
It's uncanny, he's there, she swallows.
Now or never.
She opens her mouth.
*Bang*
The words never come.
The car races by.

Days later.
He sits on the grass.
Why had he never told her?
Regret twists what's left of his heart.
I silently cry out for him.
Tears come.
It's all very firmiliar.

It's not too late.
Not yet, at least.

Natural

I had so much fun last night.
And I totally miss everyone who was here.
We just roll how we roll, or should that be, bowl how we bowl?:P
I love you all.
We just fit together so naturally.
We're so loud...and we have a lot of fun in the process.
"I feel great"
Happy Birthday Keith, my friend.

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Easter.
I live because He lives.

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Here I go.

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Could it be any other way?
I think I'm getting a complex.
I really do.
And I don't know if I want this.
Or maybe, it's more of a NEED, rather than a WANT.
It just seems so natural.
Then I shake myself, and say...is it?
I just don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
And I'm sorry, you won't understand.

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There's too many.
I'm confused.
I think about it way too much.
I guess that's what you do, when you can't figure something out.
Thing is, I can figure it out, I just don't want to.
It's actually scary.
No, really, it is.

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"I would walk 1000 miles to be with you.
If I lived 100 years, I'd spend it loving you."

I couldn't resist.
This is me.

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Do I believe it?

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Kathleen

Awe

Snow on Good Friday. Heh. You'd think we were celebrating Christ's birth, not His death and ressurection. Ironic, I suppose.

To feel small, and insignificant, while the Creator of the universe came down, humbled Himself as a man and died that I might be forgiven.

"As a rose trampled on the ground, You took the fall, and thought of me, above all."

Happy Good Friday....because we know the ending.

Not Anymore

Heh.
"Sooooo."
"Let's get this party started!"
"YAHHHHH!!!!"
I scream at the devil.
"YOU HAVE NO CONTROL"
The devil laughes.
"YOU HAVE NO CONTROL."
The devil persists.
"YOU HAVE NO CONTROL."
The devil says.
"What are you talking about, I have control."
"NOT ANYMORE."
I break those bondages.
I break those ties.
I conqour that frustration.
All in the precious name of the Lord Most High.
And if my life didn't belong to Him before.
"IT DOES NOW"
"Yeah that's right, get lost, beat it."
"Jesus reigns here, it's all about Him"

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After a pretty hard week, and things just not turning out the way they should have on Saturday, surprisingly, the later part of my weekend turned out pretty good.
In fact I needed it so badly, and I didn't even realize it til I was smiling and laughing and feeling genuinely happy for the first time in a few days.
I didn't have to be on my guard. I didn't have to think about everything that is going wrong, the pressures, frustrations, fears, and wonderings. I had no responsibilites, but to smile, laugh, love and worship God.
All in the company of, I've decided, some of the best people on this earth.
Make sure your heads don't get too big, otherwise I'll have to come and "beat you up".
You know me. The biggest beater-upper there is.
Not Anymore.

*A full-blown teeth smile stretching from ear to ear*

No ducks here.
Just a girl who's knowing she's going to make it.
Oh, on one condition....
You don't go nowhere at all.
(Yes, I am aware of bad grammer.)

I LOVE You.

Kathleen

NOTE: Special thanks to three guys in my life that seem to annoy me with their one-liner zingers, but actually rather amuse me a lot. Almost (all) one-liner zingers found in this post are property of L.B., J.V. and K.B. and if used without permission may result in interesting consequences. Thank you.

And remember : "Hosanna" rules over "Happy April Fools."

Whirly Gig

First of all I have some happy birthday's in order.


March 25th -Brittni--Happy Belated 16th Birthday.
March 30th- Katie-- Happy 16th Birthday TODAY.

I appologize to Brittni for the lateness of my publicly proclaimed happy birthday, but I know she loves me so she'll be okay with it.

I love both these girls so much. They are amazing people who are trying to pursue and live for God in every aspect of their lives. I really respect them and think they are two of the most beautiful girls I know. "Knock 'em dead" . I'm so glad you're my friends. Enjoy those books now.:P<3


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So life is a whirly gig on high speed.
Hmmm.

My dad in hospital for surgery all week, my mom's down there with him.
I have to run house, do my own chores/jobs, work, babysit, prepare for things. Oh and did I forget SCHOOL?

I don't think I'm complaining.
I'm just kind of in overload.

There's also that other situation....
*Sigh*
Takes a lot out of me.
Too much.
My time, my energy, my mind, my emotions.

Friends, Pets, Moms, Brothers, Loves and Drugs are a good thing.
How much more can you be, eh?:P

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I am looking forward to tomorrow.
Going to Niagara Falls with my aunt.
Yay springgg!!
Yay springgg clothes!!
Yay shoppinggg!!

Keep pressing on.

Coming Back

Our lives march on, at rapid paces. I glimpse you as you run past my window, running off somewhere. I'm surrounded by books and papers and all I would really like is for you to come by and talk to me and take my mind off everything else. But you're running off. Running away.
I sit back and slowly lean back in my chair. I know you miss me, it's all in the way you look at me as you pass me by. We don't talk much anymore. Too much to do, other people to see. I really do think though that you still want to see me. You wish life wasn't so busy so you could take the time to talk. Shaking myself, I press on with my life. Wishing and waiting for you to stop by. Even though I seem consumed with my duties, I'm silently crying out to you to say come see me. Then one day, a little while later, my doorbell rings and I answer the door and there you are standing on my dootstep, your eyes plead with me to let you in, or should I say let you back in to my life and my home. Your applogize and we stand there, for one awkward moment and then you're hugging me and whirling me around and then we sit down and begin to catch up with each other. And you sitting there is all that I need to tell me that I wasn't so wrong. You really did miss me, and you really do love me. It's just that it's hard for you to find the exact words to tell me it's true.

Picturessss [from last night]

Love.

K3.

Oh yes.

We're just that awesome.

Because we are.

[The Phantom of the Opera]

I will replay last night a thousand times in my head.

I will stare at beautiful pictures for hours.

I will remember it as incredible.

I have never seen anything like it.

I felt beautiful.

My two best friends in the whole wide world were with me.

And we were going to see The Phantom of the Opera.

I will remember for a long time.

Breathtaking Sets and Scenery.

Exquisite Costumes.

Gorgeous Theatre.

There is nothing I could really say to describe last night in the way it actually was.

Impossible.

I love you two so much.

Good times last night, treasured forever.

....if we sat in...BOX SEATS!

Memories.

Together.

Now

New look.
Excitement for things happening.
Seeing beautiful.
Struggling, but perservering.
Trying to love.
Figuring it out.