part of my life

I hate "this", and it's something that cannot change. Right now. (but don't I wish it could.)

I suppose, I am, waiting.

waiting:
–noun
1.
a period of pause, interval, or delay.
–adjective
2.
serving or being in attendance: waiting man; waiting maid; waiting woman.

My heart doesn't stop.
Lord, what is this?
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I'm sorry my blog is so cryptic.